WillIreallygo

[WillIreallygo]

Thank you!
You helped me so much with your answers to me.
It’s just mind blowing how quick I’m swinging fro. A person who strongly wants out to a woman who struggles to say things out loud and fear tge the reaction.

I’m fully conscious of the abuse and manipulation, why is my brain still trying to play his game? Why there is so many doubts in my own head, even knowing that I just don’t want this anymore?

Thank you once again so much! ♥️
I feel a bit stronger again.
Hopefully bit by bit I will build my own self again 🙏🙏🌷

[WillIreallygo]

Very inspiring, thank you for your post.
It brings me a hope that I can make through it as wll.
I’m absolutely happy for you ♥️

[WillIreallygo]

@brokensoul I keep fingers crossed for you as well 🌹🙏 I’m so glad this forum is here 😊

[WillIreallygo]

I’ve done that, I’ve called the doctors today and told him that I’m suffering with anxiety because of my marriage. I didn’t tell him too much of the details but I said that I’m struggling and need a help. I got referred to mental health care and I need to ring them.

@brokensoul thank you for your answer, you all are extremely helpful and I really appreciate that ♥️
I’m scared but what keeps me going is the fact that I’m not alone ♥️
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH 💙

[WillIreallygo]

Thank you very much, I’m extremely stressed out, and fearful today, in my head I have milion scenarios of what will happen. I’m so miserable… 😞

[WillIreallygo]

Thank you @watersprite, I hope I will finally have strength to deal with it.

[WillIreallygo]

Thank you for the answer.
The only one thing that boders me the most, I’m worried what will happen to him when I will report it…
How come he was hurting my feelings and emotions so many times but I have doubts. In my head is that he don’t deserve being arrested etc. I’m fearful that I will destroy his live.
It’s so hard to begin official process and be free off controlling and demanding relationship.

[WillIreallygo]

Thank you so much ladies <3
This is so supportive and reassuring.
I was looking at him yesterday, and first time from the long time he was like real caring dad to our daughter. My heart is breaking, I know she loves him so much and he is hiving her the same roller-coaster like to me. She was so so happy yesterday having her loving dad for that day instead of the person who always shout and discipline her…
I think I use the chat to reach out for some sort of support.
I’m scared that when he will find that that I want to leave, he will become nasty.
He was violent twice towards me in all these years, but I’m conscious enough to know that this could happen again.
I hope it never will but can’t be sure about it.

Thank you for being here and give me all your words which I need so much.

[WillIreallygo]

Thank you both for the response, why is it so scary to ring help line? One moment I know that my life wasn’t good,and another time I explain to myself that I’m just overreacting and it can’t be that bad. This time I have kinda visible proof as he punished me for (detail removed by moderator). It’s too big to go down completely, but you can imagine what would happen if I didn’t see it straight away…
I am tempted to call and talk to someone but in my head I see that police could come to my house and that would be my fault… Maybe that’s silly thinking but I can’t help it.
One more time thank you for support and I home I’ll find more strength in myself and finally start living happy.

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