Struggling today. Recently went back to work and that’s been tough. No stupid texts or calls in the day but it just highlighted all thats changed and lost. Today hes playing the victim on social media and I’m scared of what he might post. I’m angry that my retirement will now be way off as I will need to mortgage. I’m disgusted at things he did, that I let him do. I’m ashamed of the effect on my adult kids . I’m struggling…