Moving on

This is a post for anyone that’s hoping to leave, thinking of leaving, in the process of leaving or already left.
(detail removed by moderator) ago I wouldn’t of imagined I’d be where I am now. (detail removed by moderator) free. I always went back but not this time. I don’t know what was different this time but it just was.
Now, I’m slowly, very slowly getting myself back. Things aren’t all sunshine and rainbows, I’m still accessing counselling, still have to liaise with a solicitor over the ex’s behaviour and still have a police officer assigned to check in on me every so often to check I’m ok. I still cannot be awarded an injunction as I’m the only party that can facilitate contact between my daughter and the ex (her dad).
But things are getting better. I still have moments where I get upset but those are very few and far between nowadays. Life as a single parent trying to co parent with an narc is not easy, I’m not going to pretend it is. However when I wake up and don’t feel a sense of anxiety or I don’t have to worry about having to come home from work to him i can see a light of hope. I know this is a new life for me and my beautiful daughter, I know we will be ok and thank my lucky stars that I left when I did so that she will grow up in a happy home free of control and abuse. A lot of milestones have passed since I left him for good, first proper Xmas without him, first Mother’s Day, first Easter. He ruined every single occasion, but not this time. Whoever needs to hear this, you’re strong and you can do anything xx