Well done okay, it really sounds from your behaviour that your in a fear and almost agoraphobic state and I know exactly what it feels like cos I’ve done exactly those things (especially after the terrorising and stalking experience) but I promise it does get easier (it’s far from easy to go through) a lot of it is fear based paranoia of what if’s but it really does get easy but it takes time but your speaking the truth speaking facts so well done 👍🏻💖🤗