Just feeling rough tonight.having therapy but really takes it out of me.suddenly hits me when i least expect it.just feel lonely and like i am just going mess everything up i do.after all these years gone by after leaving him and still living in fear through the thoughts/memories in my head.i am always on edge and find it so hard to relax but just keep going with work and home putting on the show of being ok..just sick of him wasting even more of my life and it makes me cross he is still getting to me.he carries on his life with another poor woman and has money and acts like he has done nothing wrong…all my fault.through the therapy i am re living all which i know is the point to work through it but i am constantly exhausted.i appreciate the fact some of you are still living with abusers and i am lucky i got out’free’ of him but not in my head,but my heart goes out to you all x