Am I going mad?

Hello everyone I’m new to the forum and I guess I need advice as to whether I’m going crazy or not. Been with my current partner about (number removed by Moderator) years and have a (age removed by Moderator) old. We live together both names on the mortgage but I really feel like I’m being controlled, friends have mentioned this many times and I see some signs but still don’t trust my own judgement and I speak to so many people looking for clarification. I work part time currently moving to full time work soon we live separate lives he does his food shop I do mine and my child’s, we have separate (detail removed by Moderator) silly things like I might need to pop to the shops he always feels the need to say do it tomorrow or another day which makes me feel like I can’t do things unless he says. He never gives me money for our child unless he feels like it I have my little one all the time he never offers to take time off to spend time with us or to spend time with her. When I’ve been to the shops he says I can’t have been to the shops that long, get my nails done can’t have taken that long. He is off with me when I haven’t done anything which makes me paranoid, he’s funny about money and I got into so much debt because I couldn’t keep asking for money, he’s now helped me pay off the debt but I now feel indebted to him and that we can’t leave. I’ve tried to be honest in the past about us both being miserable he just says clearly I’m not happy. He’s made comments about my weight he says I’m trying to almost hurt myself by eating rubbish and neglecting my health which is true but I don’t want to be here, he knows I’ve no money and nowhere to go so I feel trapped. I’ve had the police involved for n**********c behaviour being aggressive with me in front of our child and writing this does make me think hell yes this is controlling I still doubt it. I lost my (relative removed by Moderator) suddenly (number removed by Moderator) years ago that he believes is why I’ve changed we’re not intimate or anything I don’t want it. When I’m at work he’ll keep calling me about things not important whilst I’m working, when I’m off for the holidays he keeps calling saying he’s checking in which makes me think he’s literally checking up. I’ve never been able to claim child benefit when I did he opened my post and told me i would need to pay towards the mortgage. Always opens my post and when I told him I was in debt he said he knew I was but not how bad because again he’d open my post and saw (amount removed by Moderator) hadn’t been paid. We’re not married and no reasons for opening my post.

please help me and any advice on how to get out would be much appreciated. He manipulates so much I need a plan new place to go and not be under his control anymore nor my child.