I just ate two 15 inch pizzas because I felt so numb.
The taste of the pizzas revived me.
I began to notice my surroundings again.
Since I finished with both my stomach hurts a lot and I feel incredibly thirsty.
This makes me aware that I am alive.
But on the other hand do I get the flashbacks as soon as I feel alive. A vicious cycle…
I know this might sound mad but after a while I embraced the flashbacks too. It gave them less terror and made me feel alive too. It weakens their power. And the cycle gets less and less. Just hang in there x