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23rd September 2018 at 5:06 pm #64585AnabelaParticipant
Ever since my uni started in September I started feeling very low, unable to concentrate, overwhelmed with amount of work I have to do and not being able to do anything, just stare at the screen. It came as a surprise as in summer I felt on top of the world thinking my life is soo much better now and I am happy. And now all my insecurities and feeling worthless, hopeless etc came back. That feeling that I am inferior to anyone cos of my past, feeling that I am not smart enough for my course…. And I was almost in tears this weekend unable to study at all for my exam tomorrow. (Yesterday I just wandered around my house in despair). And there is something I have done as a last resort and I think it worked a bit, as it helped me to do what I am supposed to do and study.
And I thought maybe it would be helpful to someone else who suddenly feels that everything is wrong and you are unable to cope with day to day things.
I took a shower. I washed my hair. And then despite not having to go anywhere I put my make up on and lip gloss. And then I looked at myself in a mirror and out loud I complimented myself of how beautiful I look. How smart I am. How beautiful my body, and my skin are. And how I have power to do anything. I told myself to calm down. And I had this monologue for about 10 min. And it did make me feel better. I stopped having this urge to cry, or scratch myself (as the only thing what was stopping me was long lasting scars). I came back to my desk with the attitude I don’t need to get a top mark, but I need to study something and prepare to pass it.
And I ordered pizza although this weekend I had a very low interest in food.
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23rd September 2018 at 9:54 pm #64604survivorandproudParticipant
Well done you! That is an amazing idea. I also have up and down days. I get high anxiety when I think about how my abuser used to make me feel and how much he hurt my self esteem. But then I remember, I am worth a million of him! And all the women on here and yourself are worth a million of these abusers. Stay strong and lots of love!!! X
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24th September 2018 at 1:28 am #64614lostParticipant
Thank you for sharing this. Bravery. Strength. Looks like your on your way from surviving to thriving. I need to read things like this at the moment.x
Im going to try this tomorrow. Maby in the car on the way back from the school run for privacy. Thank you x -
24th September 2018 at 8:25 pm #64654AyannaParticipant
I hope your exam went well.
This is a brilliant way of making yourself feel better.
Not long ago I bought myself new makeup and I already used it 🙂 -
10th October 2018 at 9:35 am #65290AnabelaParticipant
I got the results of my exam yesterday. And guess what. Not only I passed but got a mark equivalent to First. 🤗 this technique definitely worked for me at least on that particular day.
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10th October 2018 at 9:03 pm #65329IwantmebackParticipant
I am so verra pleased for you. You are amazing
Much love IWMB💕💕
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10th October 2018 at 9:50 am #65291freedomtochooseBlocked
this is fab. Do you know what, I am a parent and in my recent degree I couldn’t believe I got a 2.1
rock on lovely
ftc
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10th November 2018 at 11:20 pm #66854AnonymousInactive
Well done!
In order to make sure I can’t lose my essays if my computer crashes, I email copies to myself with encouraging remarks to help me keep going. -
11th November 2018 at 11:40 am #66874freedomtochooseBlocked
That’s a good idea, well done.
all best
ftc
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