Accepting he lived a double life

[Mellow]

My ex lived a double life I didn’t notice this for a very long time the longer I’m out the more I’m noticing things he did and he did a lot of tactics in my face as if he wanted me to find out I’ve also heard lately that he had a baby with someone else whilst I just had my baby I feel sick and disgusted and like he tried to trap me.I’m having horrible thoughts about him because of the pain he’s caused me I’m now single and he laughed at me for being so I feel so sick about it all like physically sick.but the worse thing is these thoughts are kept to myself no one understands or even listening professionally I’ve been passed around in circles like no one knows what to do for me and in the mist of it basically called a liar as he has denied it all despite him showing he has another kid to my child and me finding evidence of his plan for another I know I can’t go into too much here but they say victims should speak but I feel like I’ve been punished for it.he’s ended up getting what he wants and it really hurts I feel abandoned

[weather]

Dear Mellow,

I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve had to endure so much pain from what sounds like a n********t. I was also married to a nar’, who had an alter-ego the size of (2) buses. He thought that he was the greatest gift to women. I remember him boasting about how many women he’d slept with and on last seeing him; he showed me an image on his phone of a woman that looked exactly like me, but a younger version. My ex also had many children by other women, and to put the icing on the cake, he wanted me to financially support them all. Well, I am clearly out of relationships and have been single for many years now. It does get lonely at times and I am also very isolated, but at least I’m not dying every day. I’d also like to assure you that you are not being ‘punished’, which is what I thought at the time of my abuse. You are worth so much more than the abuse you’ve had to endure and it’s not your FAULT or your responsibility to feel as if it was. I now live each day as it comes and am hoping that I find a way of living with my PTSD and eventually find a place I can call home.

I hope my comments have helped you, and I sincerely hope you manage to get the support you deserve.

Take care and stay safe,

Weather

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