Hi Sabel,
First welcome to the forum. I hope you find this a safe and supportive place to be.
Understandably you are shook up from this experience and feeling anxious that it may happen again. There is no excuse for your partner’s violent outburst.
Along with getting support from the other women here on the forum, it may be useful for you to be able to talk things through with your local domestic abuse service who will understand and be able to provide both emotional and practical help and advice.
That said, do keep posting here to let us know how you are.
Take care,
Lisa