Anniversaries

[weather]

Dear All,

(detail removed by Moderator) the anniversary of when I said yes to him and I knew so many years ago that I was making the wrong decision. None of my family attended the day of my XXXX and I cried so much on that day. I felt I had to go through with it and that he was the only person I could be with, but how WRONG I was. The present is what I want to focus on in reference to the deceased children I lost throughout my time with the abuser.
This is my message to my deceased children:
You wouldn’t have wanted to be related to an evil father or family.
I feel as if I’ve saved you all the grief of a very difficult childhood in poverty and abuse, which is what I had as a young person. I honestly think of you every day and hope that you are happy wherever you are. Your mother now lives and works somewhere different. She isn’t afraid of your father any more or even reliant on him for housing, which is how I initially meet him. I realise it was a very long time ago and the past is gone now. I will miss you in my own way and this will continue for many years to come, but I sincerely hope you remember how much I would’ve loved you both.

[lover of no contact]

Hi weather,

I was touched by your poem. My heart goes out to you as you grieve these days. I’ll say a special prayer for you these days that you’ll find some comfort as you grieve your losses. Being in a relationship with an abuser (as I was) brings about so much loss. Thinking of you💕

[weather]

Thank you, Lover of No Contact. Your message means a lot to me.

[lover of no contact]

💗

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