Bad days

[Theatrequeen]

Hello
I’ve had a few really bad days this week , I have been using keeping busy as a coping mechanism (people have been saying keeping busy is good) I feel I keep really busy to stop myself from thinking and feeling.
As good as keeping busy is and it seems to be good as a short term solution ,I feel I have been using it to suppress emotions that I need to process.
I think I kept myself busy to the point of burnout which I feel has happened this week , I mean the lack of sleep due to nightmares/ flashbacks and panic attacks hasn’t helped, but I’ve had a few days this week where I have had no energy to do anything, i haven’t even wanted to eat ( totally out of character for me) I’ve been crying alot and feeling even though I’m physically away from him I can’t escape him ! It’s felt like a constant nightmare I can’t escape.
I used the shout (mental health) text service , it was just good to have someone to talk too , this helped me to feel a bit better and get in a more positive mindset.
On another positive, I actually managed to get some sleep during these days , it wasn’t nightmare free but I feel it’s the most I’ve had in a while.
Luckily I had a pre planned trip to see a show booked with my friend , so this helped me to get motivated again.
I know this isn’t going to be an easy road, I guess we just need to remind ourselves how strong we have been to get to this point , I am determined to live life now that I’m free. (I’m sure that’s song lyrics) .
Thankyou for taking the time to read .
We got this

[Lisa]

Hi Theatrequeen,

Thank you for sharing with us. I hope it has helped to post here to others who understand.

There is an organisation called Bloom which might be helpful to you too. Bloom offer free online courses created by or in partnership with therapists specialising in trauma. These courses can be accessed in your own time and at your own pace and cover topics such as trauma, abuse and boundaries.

Keep posting when you can.

Best wishes,

Lisa

[Theatrequeen]

That’s very helpful thankyou x

[EvenSerpentsShine]

The early days and weeks are pretty tough. I didn’t sleep well for quite a while and had awful symptoms of anxiety for a long time. I think the body keeps us in high alert for longer than maybe our minds think is necessary!

At a certain point I decided that my body was the boss. I decided that my body wasn’t subservient to my mind ( that’s kind of how we usually view our bodies isn’t it?) , but the other way round, my mind was going to do what my body was asking.
Can’t  say it was a miracle cure, I mean, nothing much is, except time. But I liked the shift, I liked taking care of my physical self, prioritizing my physical self, and the anxiety did go shortly afterwards ( maybe just coincidence!).

yeah, we’re all on a journey with this experience, and time and fighting spirit were my best allies.
Getting their voice out of your head is a really important part of that journey I agree with you.

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