I ended it (detail removed by Moderator) now and I still feel terrible about the abuse it wasn’t just abuse he had a dual life and I only just realised I’m having trouble coming to terms with it we had kids together and I feel betrayed and like I’ve now got a load of baggage I’ve moved on a lot in (detail removed by Moderator) in many ways but it’s my mental health I’ve spoke to g.p but I’m so down at times I just wanted perfect life and I know I’m not a horrible person or ugly but I go out with idiots