Can’t stop shaking and the police are going to think I’m a right idiot!

[Inneedofsomepeace]

I’m such an idiot. So since moving out of refuge i have my nightly ritual begore going to bed. The police gave me some door wedge alarm things so I check the doors are locked make sure they’re in place and on go up to bed come back down to double check before going to bed.

Tonight i did all of that I’d just started to fall asleep when one went off (or atleast i thought one went off) so whilst on the phone to the police i carefully opened the bedroom door to check the children were safe in there beds, explained the cats had been with me. And waited for the police to arrive to scarred to go down stairs but thinking if it was my perp he’d have come up by now. I have a marker on my address and was reasurred that they were travelling to me on lights as fast as they could, but the control room stayed on the phone. Whilst waiting the alarm stopped but i was reasurred that the lady on the other end had also heard it so i wasn’t going mad. A lovely police officer arrived to tell me he’d checked around the house noone was there and the alarm was actually a few doors up theyre away and the reason it had stopped was that neighbours had turned it off.

I now feel such an idiot i was so scarred and still can’t stop shaking. They must think I’m so stupid! But more worryinly it still took them 10/15 minutes to get to me. So now my brains working over time thinking if it had been him he could have done anything in the time it took them to arrive.

[Anonymous]

Hi inneedofsomepeace, Please do not feel silly for ringing the police , better safe than sorry. I am sure the nice officer did not mind at all coming to check everything is ok. I am sorry to hear that you are so shaken sometimes our mind can play tricks and even if it was a few houses down it can sound like your own house. I hope you manage to get some sleep and that you are a little calmer now x

[Inneedofsomepeace]

Thankyou i feel exhausted this morning. I didn’t sleep very well in the end and now i have to face counselling.

[Confused123]

Always better to be safe than sorry , don’t feel embrassed u have to protect yourself and kuds

[Anonymous]

How are you feeling this afternoon please don’t give the whole ringing them out thing a second thought they would much rather you do that than not ring them and be in danger. x

I had an incident very recently where I found a tool that he had hidden along with another weapon. I was convinced that he was planning the end for me as it tied in with what he says he would like to do. I panicked and got someone to take it away only to find out that half of it was missing so it was virtually useless unless he had the electrical part hidden. I felt very stupid for making such a fuss and for allowing it to scare me the way it did. He has not said a word about it disappearing. A tool it was just a tool but my mind thought this is it. I am glad I made them take it away and they may have thought I was being dramatic but I did what I thought I needed to do to protect myself and you have to too even if sometimes we get it wrong x

[Anonymous]

Iam on safegaurding .my family went on holiday . I was so anxious about being left alone .. i slept with a knife under my pillow i was so so scared .. i dread to think when i get my own place it will be like fort knocks .. dont feel stupid hun ..i got all this to come hugs x

[Starmoon]

You’re not silly at all and if the police are doing their job properly, then they should say the same. Your perp have ingrained that fear into you. It’s natural that you feel this way and you don’t ever need to be sorry or to feel silly xxxxx

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