Cutting back meds

[ABALTP]

It’s been a while since I was here, thought I was doing well and in good strong new relationship.  Was on the highest dose of (detail removed by moderator) for anxiety, unable to sleep and panic attacks.  I have my divorce, a conviction and a non contact order from the court.  I’ve been slowly cutting the dose of my meds since (time frame removed by moderator) it’s not easy but I’ve given it a month with each reduction, sometimes more.  Finally down to the lowest dose.  Ex has been in contact with adult kids over (time frame removed by moderator), and then he pulled a stunt using one of my old credit cards I forgot he had access to.  Adult kids and new partner keep telling me its over and he’s not interested in me and I have to accept I’ll hear things about him sometimes.  I feel like I’m going crazy again.  I know in my gut he’s watching and he’s going to try and manipulate the kids.  I can’t stop thinking about what he must be doing to his new partner, but people tell me he’s changed and she’s stronger than me.  Then I start analysing my new relationship and panicking.  I’ve been so calm and so much better, not sure if this spiral is about going too low on my meds but I figured by now I should be off them.  Has anyone else any experience of coming off meds?  (detail removed by moderator)

[BellaBella]

Hi ABALT 🙂

I’ve felt like that too.

I’d not needed any medication for mental health prior to being subjected to DV. I saw it as a short term solution to a long term problem!

As something I never wanted to take, from the first tablet I was planning not needing to take them anymore. That backfired on more than one occssion when I had reduced dose and then been triggered, I though I was OK till I wasn’t.

I then realised that it wasn’t a race.

You have clearly gone through an awful time and the after effects won’t be quick. It’s is so hard when you know that the new person is inevitably going to experience the same and somhow we feel responsible. (Don’t listen to what anyone else says, I’ll bet they are all his people).

I decided to put my trust in people that know better than me on this subject, my mental health nurse will decide what I need or don’t need according to the honest converstionswe have. I now know that I don’t know best!

There is no handbook or timeline to tell us when we should be OK, so whether you decide to stop or continue should be the right decision for you and whatever keeps you feeling level is absolutely the right thing.

Take good care 🙂

 

 

[BellaBella]

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