Depressed after leaving

[Mellow]

I left last year and at first I was relieved I still Am happy I’m out but I’ve done everything to get my life back and I’m still depressed.i keep thinking about how awful he was and just accepted it.he was so nasty to me mainly verbal .he proposed to me but later on down the line he said I would never marry you and I remember being in shock he said this but never left the relationship I kept wondering why he’s still in the relationship with me.and he would say he liked the kids and not me & all sorts of cruel things.he would talk about having multiple wives is ok and all sorts I would always ask him to leave if he’s not happy but he wouldn’t end it

[Hazydayz]

Toture, abuse, trauma. What you’ve endured, It’s understandable your still struggling. Let it out here and anywhere you can? Anytime you need to. It’s ok. let it go. 💞

[Toffeegumdrop20]

He sounds so manipulative and its not a surprise you feel depressed. Your worth so much more than someone who wants to play with your emotions like that. You are so brave for leaving. Well done

[Grey Rock]

Sorry you’re feeling low. I think that at first when we get away there tends to be lots going on and to sort out, then when things settle there seems to be too much thinking time for painful thoughts and memories to go round and round.

Have you done the Freedom Program? If not then that might be worth looking into (mine was online one evening a week and the ladies in my group have all stayed in contact for continuing support network).

Also, if you are a reader then it might be worth reading the book Why Does He Do That? by Lundy Bancroft.

I also found the Dr Ramani YouTube videos really helpful as I was mystified as to how or why anyone would be so unnecessarily vile to someone they supposedly wanted to be with. She really helped me make some sense of my experiences (also helped me be prepared for more nastiness that was still to come that I hadn’t even started to imagine he’d stoop to).

GR xx

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