Hi Done-with-this, I know how you’re feeling too well. My abuser was a binge drinker and cocaine user. And he made my life hell during that time. I’ve seen it all, and the worse part is not knowing what they’ll do next because they’re under the influence.
He would be verbally abusive, coming out with all kinds of things. He would go in cupboards and throw food all over the floor, (detail removed by moderator), spit on the floor, throw takeaway food up the wall, kick doors until they came off, throw things up the walls and break anything that was near by. I will never forget that anxious feeling of not knowing what’s coming next. He would make alot of threats to kill too whilst I was asleep. I’d be that scared I’d sit up for half of the night. I’m so glad I’m out of that now but even now I do worry about him finding me and taking revenge. I feel for you and your kids, it’s even worse when they’re addicts too xx