Emotions

[Dragonfly]

It’s not been very long, not long at all but I have no feeling. I’ve gone through shock, then disbelief, then uncontrollable crying but now I’ve gone back to nothing again.

[Confused123]

Hi Hun

Have u tried counselling, i know when i left my ex i was a mixture of fellings from numb, being strong for kids , in denial, it wasnt till i did counselling that i undeerstood the extent of abuse i had experienced and what happended was wrong, have u got any support, i find sometimes the ladies on here are the best support, make sure u talking to somebody

[Dragonfly]

Hi – I went back to the doctor today and she said I should speak to the women at Women’s Aid, said they can support me, give advice etc. I think I’ll go in to see them :-s

[Ayanna]

That is normal.
It is important to talk about it.
I am still numb to many situations.
Abuse does change us.

Keep posting!

[Dragonfly]

One of the most unreal things in my head is I’ve suddenly realised what he was doing to me. I’ve been ‘in love’ with a complete fantasy, made up person. I feel like a fool. So the person I was in love with wasn’t actually real which means I wasn’t actually in love at all because you can’t be in love with someone that doesn’t exist.

I’m going to get some support tomorrow x

[phantasmagorical]

Just want to say I relate to this 100%. He’s presented me with a fiction, now my world feels unreal. I think because of this that our emotions will keep going in a cycle until we establish what feels real.

[EeyoreNoMore]

You were in love with the him he pretended to be.

He was in love with controlling you.

xx

[Dragonfly]

I agree with you all and know you understand the feelings/emotions. I don’t know where to start with counselling, I spoke to a lady at WA and found that very helpful though. She’s going to contact me in a couple of weeks, she was brilliant.

[Nova]

I relate to this, the manipulative,unreal world, full of lies, they created to control.

I’ve been in group therapy recently, as a start, sharing experiences..has been amazingly helpful, it’s a small step towards recovery. It’s going to be tough and dealt with, to move forward to freedom from abuse.

Being alone & isolated is the worst..more sharing & support, the better for our recovery!

Hugs Cx

[itmustbemesurely]

I can relate too – I swing from one emotion to another, think that’s normal when you’re being abused like we are. You are not alone, I get how you feel xxxx we are supposed to be going out on (detail removed by Moderator) with friends but I am dreading having to put a front on and pretend everything is ok – live that lie like you describe – when it so isn’t. Smile and wave, that’s what I will be doing. Sending, strength and positive love to you xxxx

[Dragonfly]

Thank you for all your comments, it really does mean a lot. Those ‘men’ are a bizarre bunch at least and completely evil at the other end. It must be such hard work being that way, dunno how they can be bothered with the hassle of having to make up lies, then remember them (or just shake head in disbelief cos they’ve actually convinced themselves THAT DIDN’T HAPPEN) only to make up more fiction, reel us in then once we’re in their grip again, spit us out!

This sounds a bit mad but the afternoon of the night IT happened a crow swooped down and grabbed my head. I told him about it and he said “that means something bad’s going to happen”. Little did I know….. Anyway, every time I leave my house this bloomin’ crow keeps squawking at me. I know crows are very intelligent and it’s said they remember faces, but the crow IS quite scary lol. It brings back the memory of that day/night.

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