Feel so ill and fed up with life

[velvet-ribbon]

I feel so ill and tired all the time and am thinking I’m looking forward to my death. I don’t know how long I can go on.
My body feels like it’s dying. I have (detail removed by Moderator) which causes a constant pain (detail removed by Moderator), and doesn’t go away despite treatment. My joints ache and knees in particular are painful. I feel myself in a constant battle over my feelings about my husband. I feel like things would be easier if I died but I am not planning it. I just want to live in peace.

[velvet-ribbon]

Sorry to come on here saying this. Thank you for letting me have a moan. I hope everyone’s OK xx

[Chocolatebar]

Hello Velvet- Ribbon
When I read your post it echoed every single feeling that I have each and every day. I think it’s all very much do to the stress we are under and how much tension we are holding in which is causing a lot of the symptoms.
I have regular massage and although it helps at the time, the symptoms quickly come back because of the environment and situation that I’m living in.
I have no doubt that leaving him will make my health improve 100% but it’s not that easy is it.
Keep going! One day we WILL feel better than we do x*x

[tiredofitall]

Hello,
I’m so sorry you are feeling so low. A friend of mine suffered terribly with (detail removed by Moderator) and is now on medication which helps a lot. I know it’s hard to get seen by the doctor these days.
I also agree with chocolatebar that the constant stress and tension we carry on our bodies living the way we do, makes us feel exhausted all the time and can have a physical effect. I too, hope that when I’m free, I’ll feel a physical relaxation in my body.

[velvet-ribbon]

Chocolatebar and Tiredofitall, thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful messages and words of encouragement.
So sorry to hear you are also having a tough time and experiencing similar feelings.
As you say its not always easy to just leave, and going through this takes such a toll on our physical and mental health. I am hoping to start therapy soon and my GP has referred me to a psychiatrist. I hope the therapy will help me to make sense of things.
x*x

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