Feeling confused

[Weepingwillow]

Today’s been a mess . He ranted at me (detail removed by moderator) as he wanted me to help in the (detail removed by moderator) but I am working from home due to covid and have deadlines to meet. Said I was lazy sitting on my f**** arse while he has to do everything and sick of being my slave, I gave in and helped
Then I had to go to an appointment and when I got back he was shouting at the kids for not making their beds so I told him to stop swearing at them and just talk so he starts in me for being a patronising cow. Ranted for a while finished by saying he’s had enough of us all abusing him and wants us to move out …. he huffed off to bed for a few hours. (Detail removed by moderator) son went to his friends and I watched a movie with the youngest..then comes back down , no apology and just starts talking about the news as if nothings happened . Feel like I’m going insane 😢

 

 

[Soulsearcher18]

Hi Weepingwillow
I’m sorry to hear that you’ve had a day like this.
I’m sure that it does feel like you’re going insane but you’re not, you’ve been managing the situation all day and making sure everyone is ok and trying to keep all the plates spinning.
Your reactions are one of a rational human being and even coming on here and expressing yourself how you have is entirely normal and a sensible thing to do in your situation.
His behaviour is unacceptable and you and your children deserve to be treated better.
I am sure that the others will be along here to help you to process and understand this, there are many who explain it all so well and offer great advice.
If he follows the typical pattern that people have described on here, you might find that tomorrow is possibly an easier day for you.
If so, you may get an opportunity to read some of the posts on here a bit and in the space you get from him not questioning you- you might well have some questions for us about it all.
Please do keep sharing and let us know how things are going for you, we’re here to listen whatever it is that you need to say.

Soulsearcher18

[iliketea]

Hope you’re ok. You’re not going mad. I have this every day, it is horrible. Sending so much strength for the day ahead. Xx

[Weepingwillow]

Thank you both . Think I should have just journaled instead of writing on here. Truth is like you iliketea this is just a normal
Day. I suppose on the whole it has become the norm and we just ignore it and let him calm down and resume normality. Think it’s more the fact I am trying to journal that I’m thinking about it more
I just want him to stop, he can be nice so why does he need to be like this
I hate the fact he does this then goes on fb making comments about the boys like ‘my world’ xx

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