im having abit of a rough day today i was in a abusive relationship which i came out of (number removed by Moderator) years ago last night i had a nightmare that i was back at that horrible flat with my ex still controlling me im waking up at 5-6am every morning feeling defeated because im having to pay all the debts that he ran up throughout my time with him because its in my name it wont be finished until (year removed by Moderator) i have spoken to the finance people and because i am paying stuff of my own which I have got out i have to sacrifice my credit score to 0 and i just have started to build it back up.]sounds ridiculous i know but because of the debts that he made me get out in still feel like he still controlling me i dont want to talk to my partner now because its got nothing to do with him even though he is fully supportive of me and is always there when i need him.
i think im just having a rough day and letting it all out on here it was like reliving everything again when i had this dream and its really made me feel really low today