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I woke this morning with the same feeling of dread and anxiety I have felt for months. I can rarely identify an immediate cause but it is a constant that is there. The other night I told my mother it was my life and I had to live it the way I saw fit. My ex is also giving me space which feels liberating. I’m filled with anxiety and I think it’s because I’m not attempting to get anyone’s approval and it’s uncharted territory. I have decided that rather than be crippled by it all day think about what I wish I was able to do, what I would be doing if I was in a better place. The sun is shinning, so going to pack a picnic and head to the beach with my children. It doesn’t matter what time we leave or what time we are back because I’m the one in charge. I’m the one deciding. It’s crazy but it’s a scary feeling but I’m going to do it anyway. I’m going to pretend I’m in a better place until I get there. I’m not going to hide at home waiting for the bogey man that might never come. Kids are happier already as I am less weighed down. Feel the fear and do it anyway! X*x
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It is hard at first.
Mornings used to be the worst time for me. I would wake up with a horrible feeling of panic and dread. It was unbearable. I never knew anxiety could be so intense.
Now, I might get a wave of anxiety at times, but I actually feel calm when I wake up.
I promise, the intensity of panic will lessen, and be replaced by a wonderful feeling of strength.
You are in unchartered territories; but you will be the captain of your own soul. And there’s no better feeling on earth. 💛
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Iam nearly (detail removed by Moderator) without contact now.. i still have high anxiety the dread of going out alone in case hes lurking about! Its the most horrid feeling ever i get very panicky.. i just want this feeling to go away now
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PS There is something to be said for ‘fake it until you make it.’
Sometimes, pretend to yourself all this hasn’t happened and try to blot it out, in order to enjoy things life has to offer.
My friend suggesting slotting myself only a certain time every day ( say, two hours ) when I am allowed to dwell on things. They also suggested doing this on the Pattern Chsnging course. Or else, the traumatic thoughts can be your constant companion.
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Well done! I’ve just realised that seeing my ex one day a week doesn’t mean that he controls me in the rest of it.
I’m going to try for letting myself a set time for freaking out and see how it goes. -
Today I had a beautiful day out, a really strenuous hike in a beautiful part of the country, by the sea. I went with the hiking group that I joined. I,m now alone on the train heading to my lovely comfortable & peaceful home where I live alone. There is a couple sitting near me, they do not look happy or relaxed, she looks on edge, he criticised her about the seats that she had chosen. It’s so liberating to be free.🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌
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