Flashbacks

[Incognitohuman]

I’m having a bad day for flashbacks. I saw something online about strangulation and domestic violence and it triggered a memory. I’ve been in a rough mental health crisis for the last two weeks (I am getting help) but I’ve sadly noticed that trying to have a relationship with my mum is making my mental health worse because she is still with my abusive dad.
It’s really stuck in my head today that my mum doesn’t believe me about a certain incident. My dad denied what he did and said he just pulled my hair. On days like today I can still feels his hands around my neck.

It’s always been hard that my mum didn’t protect me and that she has chosen my dad. But I think what hurts the most is that my mum thinks I am the kind of person who would make up such an awful lie like that. She has never outright called me a liar but she’s always refused to talk about what happened. I asked her about it once and she said ‘I don’t know’ and then changed the subject.

I wish that I didn’t let them upset me still. I wish I could forget what happened.

[Lisa]

Hi Incognitohuman,

Thank you for sharing with us. I am sorry to hear things have been tough for you recently. It is good to hear you have some support and I hope it is helping.

Keep posting to us when you can, it can really help to offload here.

Take care,

Lisa

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