Frightened

[Everhopeful321]

There’s been some things go wrong today and he’s already kicked off, been very angry but has now gone to being depressed, no one understands, everyone is against him. I know how it goes, I know what’s coming and I’m scared. I’m less and less able to manage to stay calm when it happens, I feel anxious and on edge already but I don’t know what to do. I’m sorry I don’t expect anyone to help but I thought it might help me to calm down to write it out

[Munchkin04]

Oh I’ve been where you are so many times. My life is filled with anxiousness. I shake when he’s like it waiting for him to start. Just stay in your lane. Maybe just take yourself to bed. Keep calm and try not to aggravate. Talking about something that interests them has helped me before. Please try and stay strong. It’s hell I know. Sending hugs x

[Bananaboat]

I agree with munchkin, get yourself out of the firing line – go to bed! I can still feel that knot in my stomach just reading your post. You know it’s coming no matter what you do, so get away from him and stay safe xx

[pigeonperson]

Going to bed never helped me: he’d pull the covers off me, pull me out of bed by my hair and shout in my ear. He’d punch me awake, over and over again. White lights would flash in my head. It feels incredible to be free, even though I am going through a really rough patch with PTSD due to recent trigger, d**n, freedom feels incredible and you will get free, you will.

Are you getting some support from a DV service? I remember the day I left for to go to a refuge: my entire body didn’t stop shaking. For days. That build up abusers do is terrifying. I’m so sorry you are going through this and hope you will be able to plan and fulfill your escape soon. It sounds unbearable.

Don’t forget to eat enough healthy stuff, fruit, veg, vitamin supplements if you can manage it, to keep your strength up and keep hydrated. That horrible anxiety used to really dehydrate me and wipe my energy.

Sending hugs.

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