I’ve been asked to go out tonight and in the week I felt really up for it. Now it’s the day I don’t really want to go and I’m trying to think of excuses. I like a routine, knowing whats going to happen after years of wondering what mood is he going to be in. I dont want to be stuck in forever but don’t want to be in a position of feeling uncomfortable. Does any one else feel like this, it feels like I should want to make the most of my freedom. 😔