Hi, new to the forums

[ChickenLittle]

Hi all, new to the forums and feeling a bit down.
My ex wasnt a very nice person and although its been over (detail removed by moderator) since i left him and got my indefinate restraining order against him my head is so messed up!
I cry nearly everyday, not because i miss him, but because im so mad at myself for allowing what he did to me to continue (if that makes sense)
I have a son by my ex and its his birthday today, and as much as i want to celebrate his birthday and make it special for him i just cant, i feel such guilt because of what his dad did to him at (detail removed by moderator) (he never saw him again) i feel like my head is going to explode!
I cant talk to my family as they dont understand and didnt talk to me for 2 months after my son was born, i lost all my friends due to my ex.
I just feel so alone and feel like everyday is a punishment because i didnt stand upto my ex

[gladtobefree]

Hi
I spend half my time feeling guilty over past mistakes and the fact I feel I could have done things differently but the only thing you can do is move on from it. I know that is so difficult but guilt will eat away at you. I found it difficult to discipline my children due to feeling guilty and it didn’t help matters. Children are far more resilient than we think and it plays on our minds more than it usually does theirs.
In regards to you. Please give yourself a break. Being in an abusive relationship makes us different people to who we would be on the outside looking in. Our minds are so scrambled at times and confused due to the abuse that it’s hard to know what to do and no doubt he made you feel guilty if you did try and make a stand.
Just remember that you are not there now and you can’t change what has happened. You can be happy and free from it now and don’t let this person in your past take any more of your head space xx

[Author]

Posts