you have nothing to feel bad about at all – you are certainly not a failure. these relationships can be addictive & confusing – it can take many attempts for some to break free for good so what you are experiencing is very normal. i can only say from personal experience that when you really see the truth of who someone is & the reality of their behaviour it can help you to finally say enough. its realizing just how severely youve been manipulated – into believing how much they ‘love’ you & its all your fault. and accepting that this person will never change no matter how many promises they make to do so
when you suddenly see that you are not responsible for the way this person treats you & know in your heart that you deserve to be treated with kindness & respect – something changes in you. but this can only happen when you are ready. and its ok if it takes more time. sometimes something can be said or done that is enough to make us feel we really do need to put ourselves first protect our mental health & find peace x