Hi @Icandothis,
Oof, I feel you. I felt so guilty when I blocked my ex… I felt like I was not just deleting an important part of my life, but also abandoning him at a time when he really seemed to need me. It was heartbreaking, and I spiralled after that. I did not exactly stand strong for long, but it doesn’t mean YOU can’t.
You did a very difficult thing, but one that can ultimately be better for both you AND him. And like @Hazlenut has said, try to distract yourself and refocus your energy on your own healing. Whenever you feel like talking to him, try to talk to someone else, or even post on here!
Take care <3