I lived with a monster

[Borntobefree]

So it’s been well over a year since I run

And went no contact it’s been a roller coaster of a ride but I can finally see the light

Feeling so much better and trauma therapy has helped me so much ..

My ex was a n********t abuser
Things he did to me

Used my past against me in emotional abuse trying to provoke a reaction

Gave my dog my denture to try rip my smile away

Tried to sabotage me from working

He used his own kids against me

He sexually abused me under medication
During the night

He was a master mulipulater

But you know what he tried to break me
But he failed

Iam so much stronger Iam a warrier and warriers fight

[lover of no contact]

And you are free of him now and his toxic behaviours, but he is trapped in his own compulsion of needing to hurt others so he can feel powerful. He can never get away from himself. He will remain restless, plotting and scheming to bring others down until the day he dies. You on the other hand can heal and then live your life to the full, feeling a full range of emotions, joy and happiness included. He can only feel anger, fury, jealousy and rage. What an existence.

[Serenity]

Hi Born To Be Free,

Sending you a big virtual hug.

I can identify with so much of what you write.

My ex used my vulnerabilities against me too. I see now that I was his toy. I was the means for him to exorcise his daily demons. He sabotaged my freedom to work too, to develop and explore my abilities and to have any freedom of expression.

I couldn’t bear it when he started on the kids.

He’s trying to put the kids against me covertly even now, but he won’t win.

They are sick. They are demons. They don’t experience happiness by helping others- only by bringing them down.

It takes time to heal after we are out. But the important thing is that we are indeed out- so healing has a chance to take place. They lost the day we chose to not want to be with them anymore.

Their life is a dark mess. Though we are hurt and injured, there is hope for us. As LONC says, there is none for them. One day at a time. x

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