I think I’m losing it…!

[tryingtosleep]

I feel like I’m going crazy right now.
I had another counselling assessment yesterday and it brought everything back up again.

Now i find myself writing notes of my notes on everything that happened. I’ve literally spent hours making lists of all the abuse and crazy things that he has done.

I’ve even numbered the list.

I think it’s my way of trying to control what happened and of trying to control my emotions. I tried to sh. But even this didn’t calm me.

I need to regain some sanity!!

[Knittingmum]

I feel for you …….. hopefully you have managed to find a way to calm down that works for you. I’m not at a point where I’m having counselling yet but I can see how revisiting it beings up lots of things. I do have moments of going over things that have happened and timelines over and over again normally when I’m by myself. I find meditating or making myself busy to step away and pre-occupy my mind helps 😌 best wishes ❤️

[Anonymous]

Hi trying to sleep I’ve had a couple of counselling sessions now. I had wrote down things on paper I’d taken them to the counselling but I felt angry in the session over my ex I screwed up the paper in the room that were advised by my counsellor to obviously help me. He’s really got under my skin immensely. But more than anything his disgusting behaviour has or is preventing me grieving my son I lost last year. I’m keeping going with the counselling I’ve just secured a part time job I do walk a bit too. I ended it with him and blocked him out of my life…. yes he’s hurt me BUT he can’t hurt me any longer we can only move forwards xx

[tryingtosleep]

Thank you Knittingmum and Icandothis.

Keeping busy is always a good plan.

Counselling is really hard but you are right – it’s important to keep looking forward not back.

I hope you are both ok. X

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