Hi Tigerbread,
Welcome back to the forum. I’m sorry to hear about your situation. Its understandable you are feeling this way- when you are going through something like this, you don’t have time to process the trauma and what is happening. Its good that you are feeling safe now and also in a safe place to address some of those struggles for you.
You can access free online courses created by or in partnership with therapists specialising in trauma at Bloom. These courses can be accessed in your own time and at your own pace and cover topics such as trauma, abuse and boundaries.
Take care and keep posting
Lisa