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[Freedomisgreat]

Hello, I broke free after more than (timeframe removed by Moderator) decades in an abusive relationship. Somehow I found the strength to report to the police and he was arrested (legal detail removed by Moderator)
I feel in complete limbo now (legal detail removed by Moderator)
Anyone been or is in the same boat? I’d love any advice or just your story. I’ve been diagnosed with ptsd, I feel so messed up. I want to know there’s an end to it. I feel free but also not, I still feel like I’m under his control and afraid to leave the house other than go to work.

[Allornothing]

Hi Freedomisgreat, well done for getting out and finding the strength to report to the police.

It took me a good while to stop looking over my shoulder, conditions were breached so there was a bit of back of forth with the police.  Things did get easier and still are but he is always in the back of my mind. I am half way through the restraining order and sadly I am already thinking the worst about when that ends. I keep reminding myself that I will just have to go through it all again and hopefully get another order in place.

I suppose in a way, you will start to feel free and it does get better – I felt once it had been to court, I was glad that part was over , it was on record and I felt supported by the police and the support teams.  Even though I worry, I just need to remind myself of how I used to live and how much happier I am.  I’m not sure that anything will ever be the same again, not sure if I will ever form friendships or relationships again as I am so weary of people, hate lies and hate drama – I just want the simple quiet life!

There is a long period of limbo, I found writing down my memories helped me.  The more I wrote, the more I remembered and that helped me pushing forward.  It’s horrible that we have to live through it, sending you lots of love xx

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