Hi Ariel,
Thank you for sharing with us. I hope posting on the forum is helping to process how you are feeling. I wanted to share some details about Bloom with you in case it helps too.
Bloom offers free online courses created by or in partnership with therapists specialising in trauma. These courses can be accessed in your own time and at your own pace and cover topics such as trauma, abuse and boundaries. You can find Bloom here.
Keep posting when you can.
Best wishes,
Lisa