Totally understand where your coming from my (detail removed by moderator) end soon, I know mine wants to speak with me which has petrified me, my (detail removed by moderator).
Can you put in an application to extend prior to the current one ending?
I did find counselling helped a bit at the start and understanding the mentality behind my ex’s behaviour so that I was forewarned what to expect coming. I find now exercising and trying to do what makes me happy helps with the fears
Hopefully you find something to help you