Hey, you are already lonely and life is hard with an abuser. I left my long term marriage and I won’t lie, it was very difficult at first… for me about 8 months but during those months it got easier.
Your already low self esteem is still being impacted and I can hear how unhappy you are, it isn’t too late as it is never too late.
I left when I was (detail removed by Moderator). You will have rights, speak to Womans Aid, get a free 30 min solicitor appointment, my local CAB were helpful and speak to a a trusted GP .
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