I've decided to stay

[Woollymammal]

Hi all, Hope your all coping, especially with this lockdown..
Most know I’ve tried to leave a lot of times and returned, my mental health felt relieved when I returned but it was because I was home, and back in an area I know and near my daughter’s..
I’m still battling to get some more help with my mental health..
When I left he told his family I’d gone somewhere to try and get myself better.. ha make a you laugh.. but I even blamed my mental health when he questioned the note I left saying he was a n********t and abuser…
Weeks he’s been ok, then his evil self appeared.. I’ve not got the strength to leave again.. there was womens aid Sup port available when I moved areas.. when I came back you’ve got to battle to get one..
My CPN supposed to call ever weeks but just leaves it when there busy..
Why should I try and leave and be so ill.. there just is not enough Sup port out there… some areas are better than others..But I’m not even going to think about it again… not strong enough anymore..
Sending hugs x*x

[KIP.]

Just keep building yourself up to the point where you don’t need support. Your day will come 💕🎈

[HopeLifeJoy]

That’s ok darling, perhaps there is a reason for you to stay in the house and area where you are.
Continue talking to WA, inform them this is now your decision. Maybe they can come up with a plan where he is one having to leave the house and area.
Sending you hugs 💕

[Iwantmeback]

Hi Woollymammal, will you try and keep posting on here, just every so often. It does get too much, especially when you feel so bad, no energy,no strength to think straight, do the smallest of things for yourself like brushing your teeth. It’s okay to not be okay. Do what’s right fir you in this moment, is jyst not your time to leave yet. Always know there’s a place here round our table.
Take care sweetheart, let your doctor know how exhausted you are, let wa know. We all know how hard this is, almost impossible. But there’s always Dòchas, (hope) it’s what makes us get up and put one foot in front of the other.
Stay safe sweetheart
IWMB 💞💞

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