Latest…. Paranoid

[Arky123]

So I had lovely (detail removed by moderator) at my father’s. (detail removed by moderator)

I came home he was on sofa with heating full blast.  Nothing moved / cleaned in house but noticed he was drinking b****y hell

anyways. I had my girls to bath and me to bath. And he kept saying to me. What u doing on phone. I showed him the video I was watching each time he asked.
anyways. (detail removed by moderator) He said. Yesterday u kept getting messages all thru the night on TikTok and calling u.
oh my god no I have not !!!!

he went through my whole phone said he would batter me.
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I was shaking

I was screaming I was all over the place and bare in kind this is my lunch hour.
w*f

 

this came from no where

I don’t go out. I don’t speak to anyone.
this was all a paranoid illusion

[Arky123]

Literally cannot stop thinking about how it happened.
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when I was on way. To house he said to me “me and u need big chat “

I hung up and started running

 

I don’t know what the hell I can do anymore.
I cannot sleep. I just want my happy home again

I feel so scared and my panic attacks coming on again. I’ve been through this. So many times. I never feel strong enough to stand up. I always feel s**t scared. ;(

[Lisa]

Hi Arky123,

Thank you for your post. I’m sorry to hear about your situation. That must have been really frightening-not knowing what you were going home to. He knew full well how intimidating and threatening he was- its not okay and you deserve to feel safe.

Its sounds like you were in good spirits previously and he sabotaged that-he wants you to feel trapped. Do reach out to your local domestic abuse service for ongoing support when you feel ready.

Best Wishes

Lisa

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