Letting go

[AuroraGlow]

I am nearly (detail removed by Moderator) years clear of my abusive ex and have recently hit rock bottom. I am so lucky to have an amazing family and close friends around me, however I have hid the extent of abuse from them. It came to a head at the end of last year and I was signed off work for a couple of months, my family have since realised I’ve hidden specific details but thankfully all they’ve asked me is how I am on that day. They know they don’t need details but them asking if I’m ok makes me remember they are always there and I can tell them if I’m having a bad day.

I did speak to a professional who gave me some coping mechanisms and directed me here for more support/guidance.

My biggest challenge is feeling that there are people that have/are going through worse than I did. I have written my story, it’s 8 pages of bullet points, my intention is to burn it to let it go and forgive myself. I can’t forgive him as he will never see what he did was wrong. So I forgive myself for not putting myself first.

I am struggling to think about being in another relationship or trust anyone but I’m hoping the burning ceremony will help.

Sorry, not sorry, if I’ve waffled on but I really needed an outlet.

[Texas]

Hi, your post really resonated with me. A few weeks ago I had a really good think about forgiveness and what it means, which maybe will help.

I have forgiven the Devil, but this does not mean I think what he did was OK, and it does not mean that I expect him to realise what he has done. What it means is I have chosen to let go of the anger I have towards him and not let him control me anymore. Forgiveness is for me, not for him.

I hope your ceremony helps.

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