New memory

[Raven Poe]

I posted in Introductions that I’ve suspected my father of abuse for years. Recently I had a new memory. In my memory I was looking down through my eyes towards my privates where I saw a man from the nose up performing o@al on me. I instinctively felt it was my father even though I could not tell by just nose and eyes but it was just a knowing. Just sharing my memory and looking for support. Anyone else just had a feeling of knowing who the abuser was even though their memories are vague?

[Lisa]

Hi Ravenpoe,

Thank you for your post. I’m sorry to hear about your situation. That must be very triggering for you, your brain can process trauma in different ways, even if its feels vague that can be your brains way of protecting you.

I would encourage you to reach out to Rape Crisis– They are a national organisation that operate local centres for women who have experienced rape or sexual abuse. They are now contactable via their 24 hr helpline on 0808 500 2222; they also have a live chat service (available Mon-Fri) through their website

Take care and keep posting

Lisa

[nbumblebee]

Yes. I am going through similar. I am seeing a counsellor and we are talking through my past abuse. This is bringing up memories. Ive always burried it thought it was best to not remember but she says in order to heal i have to remember and then accept it wasnt my fault. I am remembering some horrible things I knew i was abused and who by but the extent is shocking me. Alot of memories are still missing so many it isnt nice at all and with everything else going on im finding it all hard but i am wanting to keep going. I hope you have someone to talk too dont do this alone. Xxxx

[Author]

Posts