Hi Thistle06,
Thank you for your post. I’m sorry to hear about your situation. That must have been really triggering for you. be kind to yourself- you have been through a trauma and its understandable you reacted in that way. This was your abusive ex but this person was also a threat to you- it can be your brains way of trying to protect you.
You can access free online courses created by or in partnership with therapists specialising in trauma at Bloom. These courses can be accessed in your own time and at your own pace and cover topics such as trauma, abuse and boundaries.
Take care and keep posting
Best Wishes
Lisa