Obsessing

[Anonymousmuma]

I find my myself constantly in my head questioning his behaviour; is what he just said abusive/ am I being too sensitive?

Going over things he’s previously said/ done… I find myself obsessing and it’s all I think about…

Anyone else experienced this?

[Cherries]

Yes. Absolutely.  It was all I could think about, my relationship…one way or another.

Im not long out. I get days where it starts to subside…and then he texts and its right back up to the front of my mind.

Its my brain just trying to keep me safe I think but also my conscience making sure Im still a good person.

The trouble is I dont think this stuff can be worked out by constantly going at it mentally. Its like trying to find a piece of jewellery at the bottom of a muddy lake by splashing about in the water. When we get space and peace from the confusion it becomes clearer

When the water is allowed to settle, the jewellery is visible because the mud isn’t in the way now.

If they keep poking at us. Even subtly which is all it takes in the end, we are SO on the lookout for it, that water is never allowed to settle.  It keeps us confused x

[Anonymousmuma]

Thankyou @cherries.. I have that vision of the jewellery and water in my mind 🙏

 

im grateful for your response.. it starts to make you feel like there’s something wrong with you – like you’re going crazy..

im so glad you’re out.. stay strong and never go back x*x

[Orchid reads]

Hi,

I have and the people closes to me have planted a seed in my brain, which is is my relationship healthy?

Since questioning this, its all I think about.

 

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