Sad day

[fizzylem]

We’ve had to have our dog put to sleep this morning, he is almost 19, has given us so much laughter and a lot of joy. He’s not been well for a while and more so over the last week, it was time.

I am feeling stressed with pending court case – I’m under attack for sure, and just feel that I cant deal with anything else on top right now – feared it would tip me over when I need to be doing what I can hear for my child. I have taken all of our pets over the years, to be with them in the end, but today I’ve had to send my bro and my mum.

I feel so guilty about this, as I believe I owe it to my pet to be there in the end, he’s given me so much, this is the least I can do, be there when he needs me in his last hour, but I just couldnt do it this time, its strange as I can usallu muster it, do what needs to be done, but I just couldnt deal it, deal with anything more at the moment. I’ve always found the act peaceful itself, but the taking them and driving home so sad and a bit traumatic. Tears x

[Twisted Sister]

Oh love 💐

Im so sorry. Nothing i can say can touch what you are going through right now.

Have your time though. Just be in this moment to grieve the loss of your darling dog. You hae been an amazing dog owner and carer to you dog, as that is a great age for a dog to reach! A real achievement.

Think and post about court after, for now just give yourself.time and permission your grief alone.

Warmest wishes and sympathy

TS

[fizzylem]

Thanks TS, I think you are right, no preparation today, think a film in bed is on the cards now. I’ve had a good weepy cry and we buried him together, was a team effort, so feeling a bit better now, the guilt has gone, it’s been done, they handled it. It was ok. It’s been troubling all of us for a while as none of wanted to take him but knew we should – that has lifted now. Little fellas at peace x

[diymum@1]

awe bless they are part of the family 🙁 its so hard

sending you a hug

love DIY mum xxxx

[fizzylem]

Sh!t timing hey DM, but this is life; actually feeling ok now that I didnt go – was wise. I was aware it may tip me over and thus take me a while to recover from when I dont have this time, couldnt risk it being traumatic and triggering just now, I need to be fit for this fight – was the best thing to do; feels good to have given myself this care now. He was fine with mum and bro – they took care of him. Time out today for sure but back to work tomorrow. Also means I dont have the images to haunt me now either, was needed, means I can stay focused on the difficult tasks ahead x

[Worrywart]

im so sorry 🙁 sending you a hug Fizzylem x

[fizzylem]

Thanks WW, feeling the love – is needed xx

[Getmylifeback]

Im so sorry to hear this Fizzylem

I lost my little dog (detail removed by moderator), i miss her so much. I have her ashes abd talk to her regukarly. I even said to my friend last week that thank god she isnt here now as she used to go hide and shake when she could sense the shift in atmosphere.

Your dog will know you loved him and you sent him on his way with people you trust.

Love and hugs xx

[fizzylem]

Thanks GMLB, yes I think I can remember; you went away didnt you and on your return she was really ill. They give us so much love and joy dont they, it’s tough at the end for sure. They leave thier paw prints on our hearts forever x

[KIP.]

I’m a huge dog lover and had to go through the same with mine. 19 is a great age. There must have been much love and attention. Try to hold onto that. I was a wreck at the end too. Don’t blame yourself for not being there. It’s best he was with someone calm. I made it to the sedation then lost the plot. At least you recognise you’re pushed to your limit at the moment and common sense prevailed. Sending you a huge 🤗 hug. Duvet day, hot water bottle, favourite movie and chocolate. Great memories for you. Maybe get a favourite picture blown up or framed. I’ve still got mine out nearly a decade later x

[Getmylifeback]

Yes my little girl went to sleep after id been away. It was horrendous and made worse by a complete d##k of a husband, one of tge final straws!!

I actualky contacted a pet medium and they brought her through, some of what the lady said was uncanny, i jnew she was there with me.

Hooe youre ok xx

[Anonymous]

I’m so sorry x

[AlwaysSorry]

Sending you a really big hug x Don’t feel guilty, your dog knows the love you had for him – that will never change – and it’s good you knew to take the best care of yourself that you could x It hurts like hell but what a wonderful 19 years he had with you x

[HopeLifeJoy]

I’m sorry for your loss Fizzylem, 19 years is indeed a very old age and he’s in a happy place now too. Dog heaven.
What I find admirable is that you’ve taken the decision to listen to yourself and put yourself first in a difficult situation and delegated the task to look after your dog to loved ones. I applaud that because you listened to your needs which is such hard thing to do I find.
🐕💞rip

[fizzylem]

Thanks HLP – stress from him went through the roof yesterday, so it did turned out to be the right decision, I can’t afford to tip or collapse just now with pending case x*x

[Fudgecake]

Thinking of you fizzylem. 19 years is a long time but remember the joy of sharing that time with a loyal companion xx

[fizzylem]

Aww you’ve all been so lovely; thanks everyone, ut helps x*x

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