Hi Daff
I just wanted to show you some support. I am sorry to hear you feel you are going backwards, please stay strong. You are not to blame for this and you have done nothing wrong.
If you feel like you want to chat in more detail, you could chat to a Women’s Aid worker in confidence via our Live Chat service (weekdays 10am – 4pm and 10am – 12pm weekends). They won’t tell you what to do, but can discuss your situation and signpost you to other support that’s relevant for you. You can access the chat service here: https://chat.womensaid.org.uk/
Do keep posting to let us know how you’re getting on,
Lisa