so down today.

[betterdays]

I’m all in a jumble my heads all over. I don’t know whether to stay here or move. It’s a horrible feeling. No member of my family are talking to me basically because I’ve made changes in my life. It’s getting more difficult with the boys. Just when u think ur going forwards xxxx

[Healthyarchive]

I know how you feel. This is all as a result of the tactics that are now happening, you seeing him in the car, him driving past in another vehicle, him texting you. Its all putting doubt & worry in your mind and questioning yourself. you was so positive and happy before. He has confused you and the more contact in any form you have with him the more this will happen. x

[PhoenixBlue]

I’m having one of those days too! I feel like I’m going to go crazy and be sectioned x

[godschild]

Me too, havn’t felt like this in months, its all feelings, too many feelings makes us feel we are losing it, but we will regain our composure again, this road is so full of ups and downs, two steps forward and one back, sending you both hugs xx

I was already feeling very tearful and low and seeing how he will not change or look at himself and now he has taken my dignity away, (detail removed by moderator)
He has told innappropriate people before and ive told him its my personal business and not to tell anyone unless i say i wat them to know.

He said sorry but i know that is only to cover his own back and make himself feel better, I asked why he did it he said he was put on a spot, so as ever he uses me to cover for his own needs, I was reading about narcs last night how they use you to make their own life more comfortable and he has done this in so many areas, and now because I was crying and really upset,he is saying im making things worse, if he was really sorry he would let me tell him how hard he has made it for me.

Ive really had enough of this, he is so tactless and immature ,he should be protecing my privacy not betraying it,I remember his late mother shouting across the room at a family function about my phobias , she had not got tact either, feel so angry with him and his pathetic self motivated sorrys.

[Positiveandlookingahead]

I completely get how you feel. I felt the same say I used to when he criticised me as in a way I had that happen to me today in a professional manner. I know it wasn’t intended to criticize Mr in that type of way but it still made me feel that way. Then I had a surprise gift of a Clint which raised my spirits and made me really happy. Then I received an email from my solicitor with a draft of a letter we are going to send him about lies we have made up and how we are proceeding. I was so anxious because of that letter reading it again knowing his solicitor is pushing mine for a response. Also we have a very important anniversary coming up soon so I don’t know if he will come begging or give me verbal abuse because he casually contacted me (detail removed by moderator) when I’ve cut contact with him since I left him. I ended up partly breaking the present I got and ended up driving home and feeling guilty for partly breaking something lovely that was given to me out of appreciation. Oh my God I need to breathe lol. I hear what you are saying it’s two steps forwards and then 5 back! Is there anyway you can protect yourself with the car? Look don’t worry he’s trying to make you look stupid but only person he’s making look stupid is himself just deny all knowledge of what he says. I swear these people are actually psychopaths! What gets me is how they inflict so much on you but act like it’s no big deal!

[godschild]

Hi, I have to go to to get the vehicle with him due to my phobias but feel I cant now, they always minimise what they do to you and mock you for being upset xx

[Escaped not free]

Better days, you are doing BRILLIANTLY. Don’t forget it. One of my boys is on the spectrum and my daughter has severe dyslexia. Getting them through the normal everyday without everything else is exhausting. Give yourself space. If you aren’t ready to make a move then wait until you are. I know how hard it is to get out and do anything for yourself when you have demanding but wonderful kids. Trust me though, the way you talk about your children I know you are doing great, fantastic mum and you can make the right decision for you and your boys when you are ready to. Try not to feature your family in this decision. Imagine just cobsidering what you want, just you, only you, you can do anything you want. You don’t have a partner to consider. You don’t have your family, only your boys to consider and they will be fine because they have you. It’s really hard to think of you I know, but try. See where it takes you. X*x

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