Hi tryingtosleep,
I’m sorry you’re feeling so low. The end of a course of counselling can be very difficult, it’s a space where you’ve allowed yourself to trust and be vulnerable, which takes a lot of courage. It’s quite normal for things to feel difficult after leaving, you suddenly have this space to deal with the trauma of abuse and that can take a bit of time. You’re not alone, keep reaching out. I’ve also sent you a PM with some further support.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa