Stayed off here for a few weeks from the guilt and shame of not leaving. I still want to but he uses so many tactics to stay. My family don’t know what’s going on fully so tend to stick up for him or uncourage me not to leave due to obvious financial issues I may have etc. I’ve decided new year new me and this will be the last year he has any part of my life, I am going do whatever makes me happy and I will slowly block him out of my life. I just regret my life so much why did I tie myself to this man in so many way how could I be so stupid, if I didn’t have all these connection to him I would have just packed a bag and gone a long time ago. I want to blame him for manipulating me but honestly I let that happen 😔