Hi everyone,
I’ve dipped in and out of this forum for some time now. It’s been a few years since my child and I fled. And it was hard. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I’ve never felt pain like it. Some days all I could do to go on was to tell myself “just take one more step. After we fled there was a lot of police involvement and courts. (court detail removed). It was beyond awful. I had PTSD and used to wake up in the middle of the night on my own in the middle of the night in a panic attack. I’d wake up screaming. I’d wake up being so scared because I’d dreamt he’d come back, that I could not move. I lost my job. I lost quite a few so called friends. I cried more tears than I thought possible
BUT I DID THE RIGHT THING.
My child and I have a wonderful full
and happy life, free from fear. We can jump into the car and go anywhere, do anything, explore our world with no fear.
Recently I met someone. I am floored that I can still feel. I’m completely blown away that after all that my heart is alive. I have no idea whether anything will happen with this guy. But you know what? It doesn’t matter.
If anyone has managed to stay with me, thanks!!! But don’t give up. There will be a happy ending. But do it for yourself and your kids. Never again for another man.
Xxxxx