Hi Bdays, in the last year I expect your boys would have had changes within themselves, good changes. These might be subtle at first. What you have said about is one, also when the three of them were sleeping peacefully recently when you had woken up. Your youngest talking to you about his dads dogs, open communication and sharing which is good. As the time goes on the 4 of you, particularly when you move and can properly start afresh, it will be like you have got new lives. I remember once after I split up, I caught myself smiling, properly smiling, not pretending. And laughing. I had not done this for quite some time. I bet the 4 of you have times when you smile genuinely or laugh or feel warm and positive inside. X*X Are you all still going on holiday soon? X*X