Trauma bonds?

[Sad and alone]

Does anyone know much about trauma bonds?

I am struggling to understand why I stay. I don’t even like this person any more. So much has happened and still does. He has destroyed any love I had for him by the way he is towards me. But I don’t leave. Why? It’s so frustrating.

I get it if you still love, or feel like you love, a person. But I don’t. We don’t have any intimacy and I don’t want it either. I do feel like I’d worry if I left would he be okay as he doesn’t have anyone else. No family. Not that I have much either but more to go back to than him. He’d be completely alone. When times are bad I don’t care but when things are “normal” I do. I think if I left this how would he get on running our little business alone, or would he be able to look after the animals we have. And yet he tells me how great he is all the time I shouldn’t be worried that he couldn’t cope.

At the moment my reason for staying is that I have an elderly pet that I can’t take with me (really is too old and wouldn’t be fair) and can’t leave behind as I’d be too worried about them, whether he would look after them and do what they need doing medically. Or whether he’d get angry at them which he has on occasions, calling them names but in an aggressive way when they’re just doing things old pets do. I think this reason is valid and I say when my pet passes I’ll go. But what if I then find another reason?

Is this trauma bond? I’m confused about what it actually means or the forms it can take.

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