Hi, I need advice fast!
I was abused as a child, then something happened again when I was adult.
Then I was in a (Detail removed by Moderator) year relationship with a man, who was nice to me during daytime, but hooked on porn.
He only wanted to have abnormal sex, which made me bleed and have abdominal pain.
We broke up in the end, and he made me feel like I was hysterical and crazy, and the one who has problems with sex.
Now I have been to a gynecological ultrasound. And I have 2 organic damages downstairs. One is lasting damage to the outer lining of the tract caused by this boyfriend.
The heavier damage must have been caused before him. I have scarring on the uterus and a muscle tumor has grown to cover it. It makes it difficult to get pregnant and carry it to term. It can cause miscarriages. But they dont want to operate. That would do more damage.
What do I do now?
I dont know what to do or how to feel anymore. I tried to put everything in my life in order, with work and having a relationship. I really tried to love him.
Do you think our sexual problems were caused by my emotional distance and constant complaining?
I am so sad!